after 16 years i got it. i got why i get upset, mad,sad,anger. i feel loneyness. after my birthday i was upset on my b-day and i didnt know why. it happens alot i get anger and sad. when no one talks or hangs out or notices me i get thoes moods. i dont want to be loney. i hang on to tight. u fear being alone. i cant even explane what goes on but when i am alone or bored or nothing to do i get upset AND pissed off at the world. its like haveing add or something. being loney or something pisses me off. i cant be alone or not talk to someone. i dont know what it means but W/E i finly get it. yesterday was birthday and we had my party on the 16th. then we celabrated it but i really wanted to today. and i just didnt happen. mom dad sister never said a word. no gifts no cards no nothing. lame... i got really pset that big day and i felt nothing nothing at all. i dont know maby i just a spoiled brate or something i need help. i like being happy and helpfull and haveing all my amazing friends and my work and being happy. but when somethings not that good sometimes i louse it. so sorry if this has ever ever affed you. SORRY! i love you all! its 1:44 am march 28th. bed now

YEA BIRTHDAY!!!